G4alien's 365 & 1/4 的生活空間

I had a very strange dream that I was in a village as a visitor. That village is an old living style which applied torches for light in the evening. The location seems to be in South East Asia, like in Cambodia. Those people are all non-Chinese look but very Asian face living in straw-built structure. Forest around with the cry of insects. People spoke in different language which I don’t understand. I just know in that dream, women was bullied and humiliated by their tribe leader who is a 50s year old man. He took young lady about teenage as a kind of sacrifice ritual for their god by having sex. He abused this ritual with various excuses to have sex with any young ladies who are from poor family and can’t afford life no mentioni to fight back that leader. I can’t remember the complete dream but several girls were crying and telling me by a certain chronicle memory and images inputting into my head of how they were tortured and those strong sorrow feeling of how cruel it could be was transmitted to me. I could even feel the pain from their bodies and sense that vulnerable, defenseless and fragile sadness from their mind. The final scene before I woke up was a pregnant female in age 17 or 18 who looked dingy in smeared white robe to be sent to cremate her body because she was raped by that tribe leader when she was in pregnancy of week 30s. After the rape or their so-called ritual for god, she was miscarried and I saw her legs open under her robe and had vagina bleeding mixed with other mucus as kind of a running sore festering. She was yelling, shouting, crying out loud and struggling to get rid of four men’s lifting. I could even sense her nervous breakdown and then I woke up with the impression of her open legs with festering in blood and mud.

When having this kind of dream and waking up from such a dream, I don’t feel good and feel sorry for them. This is some dreams that I wonder whether I am sick or my mental ability has problem. Those dreams are so vivid as if I was there and experienced through what people feel. When I was in the dream, I sometimes want to get out of there and was very aware of being in sleep and didn’t want to suffer those dreams to carry on. Last few days, I dreamed that I was about to sleep and had another dream of getting myself out of my dreams. My brain is too active and I want to stop it once a while. Why not having some normal dreams? Or how come I have dreams like this? People are dead, coming back or I am looking for a way to get of the scene in my dream. Do I really sleep?

The image of this young aged raped girl is so strong no to get rid of easily. Her helpless and perplexed look from the expression in her eyes had me like taking the picture of that scene and file in my brain which can’t be deleted. This is a dream in the language that I don’t know and can’t communicate with the people there. Every dream may have its meaning of whatever my mental or physical problem. I wonder whether I am so sick to stop those inerasable scene from my memory or I may even confuse those with movies or reality as if I’ve seen somewhere before.

Maybe I can script for movies and sell it to make good income. Oh, God!!!