話說當年老O年紀小，對自己的父母極度不滿（自言爹不疼，娘不愛的小兔崽子），七歲那年，籌劃一早的離家計畫；那天一早，這小伙子準備了自己上學的書包，包裡一本書也沒有，準備了貯備離家用的家當，計畫去森林自給自足。
這小子自以為思考慎密，準備了小檯燈，因為知道森林晚上會太黑，得用到燈照明，擦亮自己的遠視厚玻璃鏡片，確定自己看的清楚路線，外加擔心自己睡得不安穩，還在包裡硬是塞了個枕頭，啥都以為帶了，就是忘了帶食物。
到了森林後，小伙子自鳴得意的可以脫離討厭的父母，快快樂樂的自己一個人生活，卻未知森林裡頭沒有電插座，也沒有帳篷棉被，即時有戀枕癖，也無法安穩的熟睡。直到天黑，這小伙子發現「糟糕！沒插座，沒燈光！」肚子也餓了，忘記帶顆蘋果果腹，結果傍晚摸黑回家。
老O說，記得當時回到家那一刻，自個兒光生自己的氣，氣得把包包使勁地扔到房裡，恨自己不爭氣，也意識到自己的父母親並未出去搜尋他的蹤影，只聽到自己媽媽的揶揄笑聲，更是把自己氣得牙癢癢地。
這兩天看Sex and the city超有心得，我想這齣劇主題就是男女大不同，女人單純的想要一個完整完全的愛，而男人總難搞得懂女人的心態，想是一道深鎖難以解碼。當男人聽不懂女人的暗示，總希望女人誠實地表達心態；可是當女人誠實時，男人很難接受女人攤開的一面；換言之，就是說對話，作對事，總是對錯時。
劇中四個三十歲以上的女人代表四種心聲，也是女人內心想法的基本四大面：
難道只想單純的被愛是奢侈的嗎？
談情說愛一定要選對人才行嗎？
乞求一場永恆的愛情是錯的嗎？
擁有愛情與麵包是不切實際的嗎？
This week I have been working on my discussion chapter AGAIN after 3 months later. It was a nightmare in writing this chapter, which took me so much brain power and made me wonder whether I am a moron or not. I decided to rewrite my discussion chapter after my literature review month since I found there are many interesting points to discuss. I am also aware that I am capable of using counterpoint to make points of my research value and the findings to implementation. After writing my first section to reflect my first research objective, I honestly have to say that I enjoyed the process although I often end up nodding my head. This process is still taking much of my brain power and exhausts me somehow. At least, when I review the current section I just finished, I notice it turned out to be more interesting and organized. I definitely learned something from writing my literature review.
Although many of my colleagues told me that the chapter of literature review is the most easy process since we all have been suffering from data collection (I called it a “begging” process－asking all kinds of friends for help; especially I collected 3 kinds of data) and data analysis process of both qualitative and quantitative methodologies (I called it a “torturing” process－transcribing, finding patterns, learning analysis programs and statistics). Eventually I am at the stage of “writing”, or I should specify, “the last stage of writing”. This process is considering the most uninspiring process and I have to whip up myself to feel motivated. However, before entering this “writing stage”, I have been looking forward to starting this stage because it implies that my collected data is valid and my data analysis is significant. When doing my data analysis, I was in a great fear that whether the data would turn out to be rubbish, wasting my time. Meanwhile, I have to do a lot of reading during data analysis to see whether the results are reasonable. (I should feel ashamed of myself since I was bit lazy in doing my literature review.) After having the results from both of my qualitative and quantitative data analysis, I was quite concerned whether the results were not compatible and what I should do if the results were opposite. Although qualitative and quantitative data analysis do not guarantee a common result due to different research methodologies, it would be a disaster if the results are contradictory, implying either I have to find out the problem; e.g. findings another pattern, changing another analysis formula or the worst－collecting data again. I panicked immediately whenever I was thinking about re-collecting data which implies that it would take another year minimum.
Now I am writing and modifying at the same time. It is certainly not a joyful process, but it is more like a peaceful process that I learned to think and interpret objectively and logically. Yet, it is quite difficult to remain calm all the time and keep my mind on writing over 2 hours. I often become sleepy after 2 hours writing and spend 2-3 hours watching soaps to cheer up. It is bit like a struggling cycle being on and off. The pressure I have is more about facing the deadline. I set up my target to finish each chapter in one month. Writing my literature review chapter was especially stressful when the data findings suggested me lacking of much knowledge in related literature (I read much of computer-media communication, teamwork and methodology, but I read little about conflict management). Reading is no longer a difficult thing but fining related literature is difficult since there is little literature review in conflict management strategies.
Anyway, I tried to write some interesting points in conflict types and conflict behaviour in virtual teamwork and so far, I finished the chapter of literature review and hope my supervisor will not ask me to add more about it (Geeee, I will see him next week). The current plan is to finish discussion chapter by the end of this month and start the introduction chapter and modifying the data findings’ chapters. It will not be much fun but I can not wait to finish it and have a month holiday for myself. I do not have any holiday over 2 years and am feeling smothered. My last summer time suffered from bipolar disorder and so badly thought of doing crazy things; e.g. jumping on the roof, hitting my smoking flat mate, packing up my stuff going back Taiwan. Now I have a contrasting feeling and feel more like a positive person again (talking about this, I have to thank Karen to help me out of daily sleeping torture). I am looking forward to finishing it and then, HOLIDAY, HOLIDAY and HOLIDAY, which is all I need for my efforts. I think I am so desperate for holidays and unwind myself.
前天原本朋友說要來煮飯請吃魚，不過看樣子應該是計畫流產了（嗯～果然是個沒誠意的邀約，人格誠品大打折扣）；可是米都已經煮好了。熱油小炒了兩種糙米後，等糙米出了飯香味後，加了布丁米、韓國米、日本米稍微翻炒，最後加了滾水把米煮開一分鐘後，加鍋蓋轉至小火約一個小時混煮五種米；混的糙米加強了纖維，此外，糙糯米添加飽食感，因為混了多種米，所以照片裡的白飯的顏色其實還帶了點其他顏色，剛好統統一個人獨享，耶！
另外放入滾水，用小火悶化黃冰糖後，泡上一把枸杞，放置陰涼處，等甜水涼了後，擠了一整顆檸檬，也放了檸檬果粒，做了一鍋「枸杞檸檬汁」，酸酸甜甜的涼水特別開胃。檸檬在甜水置涼後放入，不扼殺維他命C，枸杞護眼的功能也額外讓甜水，甜而不膩，在英國沒辦法有路邊攤賣鮮檸檬汁，一般人工飲料的糖份，甜的讓人生痰，只有每次自己乖乖的自製一鍋檸檬汁，奢侈的享受一番有甜水的世界。
星期三跟老闆又來一次meeting，知道老闆把我排在好友Gunce的下一位，趁機讓我跟Gunce可以順便碰面閒話家常聊八卦，昨天知道老闆已經在meeting尾端了，所以敲了門直接進去。老闆不改愛開玩笑的個性，在我進門後才說，“Come in”，因為心理對這次meeting不比之前的濃重，也嘴巴管不住自己，小小回了老師說，“Well, I came in already and you cannot shut me out.”（我看我的rudeness都是老闆四年訓練出來）。
這家義式餐廳是1968年開的小型餐廳，小小的餐廳，大概上下兩層樓約三十人的座位（上層樓多半是得先預約才有位置）；每次去幾乎都是滿滿都是人，即使是下午兩三點過了午餐時刻，去的時候也多半是高朋滿座的情況；由於這次碰面又剛好是碰上good friday（註二）所以傍晚接近晚餐時刻，肯定是人滿為患的狀況；當天早上電話提早預約座位時，已經被告知樓上定位區已經滿座，只能有First come, first serve的選擇了。雖然當天的還是得跟人share table合吃，但是也沒影響美食的魅力；當天選座位在櫃台座位與獨立坐桌抉擇時，心機頗重的選了獨立坐桌，心想到底多少英國人會想要與路人（尤其是share table是外國人）share table，呵～這個策略似乎多少見效。
今天下午去郵局領了兩個包裹後，順道去買菜，好久沒出門買菜了，大概兩個禮拜多了吧，真是超級無敵的懶惰，嘴裡老嘀咕、心裡頭老想著台灣那種出門就隨處有得吃的簡便日子；可以到處買好吃的小吃，左手拿個胡椒餅，右手握著金桔檸檬汁，聞著香氣，咬一口餅，吸上一口清涼飲料的輕鬆自在；若又是身在夜市裡遊蕩，東走西瞧的，光食物的選擇就已經是琳瑯滿目，蒸、煮、炒、炸樣樣都有得買，一點兒都不無聊，就怕逛上一場之後，肚子都鼓了起來。（想到每次要回台灣前，都發e-mail給我家老爹老媽，叫他們把東西煮好等著迎接我的大駕光臨，我真是個厚顏無恥的小孩。）
便當盒是之前吃韓國便當留下來的，可以微波的好盒子，丟了可惜，資源再回收，又可以好好作個便當。今天的便當是雞小腿炒韓國辣醬為主食（一週一度喫肉的好日子），重頭戲在飯，我混了三種米：Japanese rice, Brown rice; Brown sweet rice。首先，將生米熱油乾炒過，等略炒上三分鐘，聞到飯香味後，再加沸水用鍋小火悶上二十分鐘後，飯香味特別濃，其他的餐點是煎courgette淋蛋汁，還有厚厚的蔥蛋，不過今天沒有放菜，應該刨削川燙一下紅蘿蔔；主要是因為雞肉炒太多了，沒地方放菜；但還是最後吃個西洋梨補充蔬果營養，外加一片Côte d’Or Noir純度86%的黑巧克力作為甜點結束今天的第一餐，也可能是唯一的一餐。
這一兩週可能因為壓力大（自找藉口）所以在ebay悠遊得很愉快，趁暑假快來臨，買了四條以cargo/combat款型的褲子，外加兩雙平底娃娃鞋，件件都是全新含標籤，都是有廠牌，褲子每條幾乎都不超過七鎊；NEXT, FCUK, No Fear三家，尤以其中一條FCUK的褲子讓我讚不絕口；另外，鞋子其中一雙是西班牙平跟鞋，穿起來也好舒服；鞋子每雙不超過四鎊為原則，也以真皮為條件，花錢也是要很小心意義。
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G4alien部落格換新面貌囉！
之前那張圖片已經用了一年左右，最近剛好又設計了一張可以放在網路上得圖片，就乾脆更新整個部落格面貌。上次作品都是以橘色黑底為主流風格，這次換成藍色基底，圖片主要是從夢境的事件所看到的景觀作為一個創作的起點，夢境裡看到很藍的天空，很亮的天景，還有一望無際的大草原，炊煙裊裊，煙幕迷濛的映像深深地烙印在腦子裡；所幸把夢裡的世界給用圖片呈現出來，以解自己的創作飢渴。
不過這次的部落格唯一比較讓自己無法滿意的就是Profile, Blog, Album, G. Book標籤的展示（如圖紅箭頭所示。）主要是不容易把文字標明清楚，圖片也用的相當的大膽搶眼的顏色，所以這幾天還在思考怎麼把圖片跟文字作細部結合，讓介面能比較清楚些。
Adrien又演了新片子囉，記得上次要去看，結果因為一堆事情沒時間上電影院，現在就只有看DVD安慰自己一番。一直都很喜歡Adrien的片子，之前也單獨介紹過他，好片還是繼續推薦給大家囉（見：Adrien Brody）。
◎片 名 Hollywoodland
◎年 代 2006
◎國 家 美國
◎類 別 犯罪/劇情/神秘
Creativities/小說與設計 (3) Life notes/生活點滴 (5) Entertainment/自我娛樂 (2) Food notes/食物隨記 (2) Research-Work/工作與研究 (3)
